Tuesday, February 1, 2011

writing an apology letter

for something i'm not sure i did...i just hope this will stop the hating, cause, really, hating is overrated and needs to stop. i personally don't hate anyone right now, and i won't in the future, though i've disliked a few in my past. i thought I did for a while, and I kept trying to avoid hating, but it didn't work out for a bit. Now it's all good though, cause I found something to appreciate her for(: But really, this specific person, i believe (i also admit that i'm assuming), is trying hard to find something to hate about me. She's hated others before, and I specifically remember why, but when she finds something small to hate about that person, she finds a million things to trail. It's really hard to get her to stop hating. So I'm trying to find out the millions of things she might hate me about that she's found, and correct them (: I really hope it all works out because I treasure her deeply, she was one of my best friends. So many good memories. But now, all I get is a glare, and I don't really know why. The last time I talked with her was to apologize (again, without knowing what I was apologizing for...) and asking her what I did to make her dislike me so much. Because I'm stubborn. I understood where that came from (PUH LEASE, I'M IN DEBATE. I'M STUBBORN FOSHO) and I tried to correct it. The only times that I don't agree with someone is when I'm in a debate tournament, or a few days after the tourni. But yes, I'm correcting and slowly progressing. Hopefully. I shall continue writing and hope less hate will be projected into the world. Why must you hate? It's just going to bring yourself down, especially if you see that person everyday. Try to find things to love about them, rather than things to hate about them.